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Being in a large room alone, many thoughts started showing up with which I had resolved a minute after I thought of it. Then after watching an episode of desperate housewives, I figured assessing my desperate life.
I came to a point of realization that the hardest person to contend with is myself. I used to live in a life wherein I have these pre-conceived images of how good it was. Then came a huge rock, hit my head and woke me up and showed me the true life I had been living. A lie would be an understated word. It also made me realize how powerful the human mind is. How it fools one of what he wants to think and seemingly blocks the things that are really going on; authentically being desperate.
Each of us is desperate on something, that's what the soap tries to say. It seeks to show how life could fluctuate before our very eyes. My thoughts went on and I identified one recent incident in which I had been very truthful to myself and to my desperation. It somehow knocked me off and made me feel somewhat better, not trying to suppress myself. And so the chain of thoughts went on.
Clearly, one cannot generalize how he's to act in different situations especially if he knows small of himself like I do. And so goes with misjudging the possible consequences. So that leaves me with complete doubt and hesitation regarding continuing this life which has been placed over a pile of pretense. But I will, nevertheless continue and see the true path I have been walking on. Slowly, I will move to a better path and lead it with enduring pride and respect. To the people I have hurt or caused trouble along the way, I sincerely apologize.
Everything in life happens for a reason. It's meant to better what is at present. This is what everyone around me says. I just hope they are not lying coz I wanna believe that too.
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