Today is one of those days wherein I would find myself bored to death. With a lot of things to review and no one to talk to, who's not going to feel bored? Anyway, I am usually like this whenever semesters come to an end and it kills me when it occurs to me that I'll be on vacation; well probably because I have never tried to enjoy the summer, not even once - ever since I entered college.
Come to think of it, maybe I should start enjoying the summer for I might be starting with my thesis already this coming semester and I am sure that I will be very much immersed to that study that I won't be able to socialize. BUT!!! I will nevertheless try to socialize at the best of my abilities. I may be in U.P. (stereotyping busy students) but I value the people I care for more than anything else. It's just that priorities must be set and this is the time when I have to really be serious and start doing stuff for myself.
In the end, I don't want to feel empty.. That's all. I am afraid that nobody needs me anymore. I am not an officer in our organization for AY 08-09 and even though I can still help, there's this part of me that sometimes makes me feel I am not needed anymore. Many of the people I got to be with for the past 2 years are now pursuing their own careers and a lot of my high school friends have formed their own sets of friends.
Even though people may find these things I say fickle, hey this is who I am. Though I am best at self pity (yes, I admit that), I still manage to move on but I don't forget the good and the bad times of the past because I know that in remembering those things, I can be guided or steered into a better path. And yes right now I feel empty, but soon I know that a great force will help me cope and not feel empty anymore. Whatever, whoever that force sends, I will welcome it with open arms.
A friend of mine once told me he gets really hurt when people leave, even for the simplest reasons of having to go somewhere else. He wishes to die before each one of his friends die so that he won't have to endure missing. I think that is really coward but hey I don't know what was going on in his mind when he said that. Sometimes I can relate.
Sigh... If anyone needs me, I am just around, give me a ring or message me up and I just may be able to help. I can use some company..
Hrmmm, someday I might look back on this and feel stupid, but I don't care.
About Me
- Japo
- Second “Koyah” ng Arki Forum (after ni Araschid Abdul), kumakain nang tama at nag-eexercise sa umaga, praning lang sa pagkain, lahat nalang carcinogenic (“ang apple ay carcinogenic”), isang taong madaming raket, ibibigay ang sarili sa iba, puna lahat, down-to-earth, sensible, determined in the face of adversities, doesn't use too many words but still eloquent. He is CHISMOSO, sensitive, martyr, hard worker, dedicated, passionate, talented, and vain. Even when he stands doing nothing, he wants to do something. He’s itching for it every single time. And that single fact people know when they think about him makes them love him. He may look intimidating because of his huge built, but one would surely dismiss this notion upon an encounter. He is fun to be with because of his great “banats” and witty personality. But don’t let this personality of his fool you, he also has a serious side. When it comes to work, his dedication and commitment are some of his edges. This kind-hearted guy has a lot of heart to help others in his own way. If you want to talk to someone, it would be him. He gives the best advice there is!
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