Dissatisfied

Here I am writing for the first time after hearing the most sought after "you passed!" phrase ever in my life. Yes, I passed. I am happy; happy because my prayers were answered and I was given a passing mark. I am also sad; sad because I was not able to showcase what I can really do. After assessing my performance, my thesis output is barely 50% of what I can do but it is 100% of my attention already. I am so easily distracted.

This shall mean I must devote at least 200% of my attention to my next endeavors so I can reach my 100% output quality. These are the times when your ego tells you, you could have done a lot better. The time given to us was enough, it was just me and my procrastination that devoured the very chance I was hoping for - to be able to regain prominence through a good shot to a 1.0 in thesis or better yet, one of the top presenters.

Maybe the best thing I can do now is put all of the things I never got the chance to showcase in my thesis deliberations into my thesis book for future reference.

This thesis season, I was absent in many subjects because I was trying to finish my drawings. I did not cram at all. I was just inefficient. I was late in submissions and was even scolded several times. Now this is an issue I should really focus on. Time... Oh well, I have the whole night to think about it.